The ride has just gotten terrifying. Watching a friend with a different agency who traveled with us, pass court, be submitted, clear, and leave to bring home... So excited to welcome home E. (Did I mention she is the same age as Bella and I love her mom?) Watching my sweet friend Emily, pass court, be submitted, and clear (thank you Lord). We have not been submitted to embassy. I trust that our agency is doing everything they can to be submitted and successful at the embassy level.
But this brings me to my pets. We have two new pets-Discouragement and Impatience. Actually, I am not sure how new they are. They are normally caged, but they are sneaky, and often escape and run rampant in the house. They are quite destructive. The craziest things can release them. They feed on the most unexpected things...expectations are like a Red Bull to them. They go crazy! I hate admitting it. But I am truly hoping to vanquish them from the house. As I am becoming more aware of them and their triggers...I have come to realize that they did not move in just recently. They think that they have lived here forever.
So, I wait. I wait to be submitted in this beautiful season where we await the Greatest Gift. The parallel is not lost on us. In fact it becomes even more clear why I need Him. I am so flawed. My heart aches to bring this little boy home. I pray for his case to be submitted. I pray that the USE sees the evidence and allows Efa to come home. I pray for patience. I pray for a stronger faith. I pray for encouragement. I pray not to feel forgotten.
May the God of hope fill (me) with all joy and peace as (I) trust in Him, so that (I) may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit. Romans 15:13