Tuesday, February 28, 2012

Nairobi

I think that this little guy may be a goofball.

He is well loved.

Drills while he waits
Sweet boy


We wait.  Our file has been sent to Nairobi.  As much as we expected the email, it still punches you in the gut.  I can not bring myself to look at the calendar and see where that will bring us.  Even writing about it makes me cry.  It has been 8 months since his referral.  It has been 4 months since we met him.  It has been 7 weeks since our submission...but the timekeeping does nothing to change the fact that we wait.   I know that the calendar is a tool of despair in the process of adoption.  After all, I am an "experienced" adoptive parent...can you hear the sarcasm?  I was really careful not to plan on him being home by Christmas.  However I thought for sure that we would travel in January.  And in my mind, I started to think how special his 2nd birthday would be in March.  March 17th.  March 17th, he will not be home, though.  I fell into the horrible trap of having a calendar of expectations.

Yet I am always with you; you hold me by my right hand.  Psalm 73:23

6 comments:

Doug and Kristen said...

Hi there. thank you for sharing your story! I totally know your feelings (and sometimes frustrations) about waiting and the unknown. We have had a good amount of friends from our agency have their cases sent to Nairobi. And ALL have been cleared very quickly - within 2 weeks!! Praying that is the case for you!! We received referrals in April, court in July, received court decree in November, and now are waiting for embassy clearance, maybe this week! So, our journey has been quite long like yours. But timing is definitely not the same with our Lord. So, we press on and
Commit everything you do to the Lord. Trust him, and he will help you. Psalm 37:5.
--Kristen.

kameron said...

I remember these feelings. Hold tight to God's promise. He will be home soon. Praying for efficiency in Nairobi. He is one handsome, special little boy.

Anonymous said...

that could be good 70% of adoptions are cleared in two weeks when sent to "Nairobi" (they are also being sent to Rome at the same time.)

Deena said...

I'm so sorry that you are still waiting. I will pray for Nairobi to be a quick process. Your little guy is simply precious.

coffeemom said...

Knowing your heart hurts so hurts mine too. But look at his face...soon you'll be wiping jam off of it. I KNOW it! Praying. You are having the most mindful lent...what a walk...... Much love, M

scooping it up said...

Oh no. I am so so sorry. This is just terrible. Though maybe it will be good thing?? Praying and hoping for you.