Small steps in the adoption front. We had our conference call with Jessica at Gladney. She seems lovely. I am at peace with the wait (at the moment). I came out of the talk though, thinking. The closer we get the further it seems. As we get closer the wait time seems so much longer and painful. There is a Chinese proverb that says he who knows patience knows peace. I am not sure if Rebecca, Lori S, and Chelsea would agree ( just to name a few.) I am so praying for them. They have been so patient. Maybe when we surrender to God's time, we know the peace. I don't know. I do know that at some moments I am so at peace and others I am so crazy. They seem so peaceful and are handling this wait so gracefully that when I get to where they are, I can only hope that I handle it as well.
Going to a talk tonight on Surviving the Teen Years While Keeping Your Sanity at BC High. I will have tons of food for thought. Most importantly, I think she is approaching the issues with a sense of humor. I absolutely subscribe to that. I am sure I will feel compelled to write on that.
So have I mentioned (this week) that I love CBS? I do. This week , a couple things hit me. How do I decide what impact people have in my life? How often do they tell me what they know I want to hear? Do I/we listen or take advice from a talk show host, a radio commentator, friends , "experts"? Not bad, just notice who influences us. Why do I turn to God for the crisis or big decisions but ask for no guidance with the small ones? hmmmm This week I am going to write down all the small or big decisions (should we move to a bigger house? should we change our referral? what do I need to do about a friend who just does not "get" disrupting the balance and adopting? -to- how should I decorate the sun room? what should I make for dinner?-just to name a few) Instead of going to the usual source of advice, I am going to prayerfully ask for answers. ("You may be surprised at how faithfully He answers when you get into the habit of asking Him for advice."- from the Community Bible Study workbook) I also realized how much I miss my mother who died a little over five years ago. She was amazing at helping me to reflect without telling me what I wanted to hear or what she wanted me to do. Oh well.