Court Date (take #2)

August 14th. Sweet Jessica called today. After months of hand holding she had good news for us. We have another court date. We never made it to court the first go around. We are one step closer to bringing sweet little B home.

More good new abound..... could I possibly be traveling with my friend????? I will not be a spoiler but I suggest some sleuthing. She has not posted the news yet.

Quiet

I truly believe our children teach us. Little B is already teaching me something Zach already knows. Be quiet.

Today was a breaking point for me. Probably have a couple more in me but not many. I have felt such a range of emotions in our adopting of Little B.

Before the referral...impatience and excitement reigned.

After "meeting" our little girl....humbled (that we would be chosen or matched as her parents) was added to the list of emotions, sadness because I am a parent to three children already and I could only imagine what they would experience had their story mirrored hers, and impatience and excitement, still.

After our detour (May 21)... fear that she might not be coming home with us, concern for a sweet and very shy 2 year old's transition, sadness for time we are missing out on each other, hopeful that her paperwork issues are resolved and of course impatience and excitement. There would be mixed in frustration and, even, anger at delays that made no sense.

July 9...as of yesterday MOWA is closed for training...still no court date for us. Stillness. There is nothing I can do. Nothing Jason can do. A migraine and so many thoughts later.... an email from a sweet friend. (I don't think she will mind my sharing it because I know that I am not the only one inundated with so many emotions and thoughts). This is what she wrote me:

My Jesus Calling devo today. Honest.

Stop worrying long enough to hear my voice. I speak softly to you, in the depths of your being. Your mind shuttles back and forth, hither and yon, weaving webs of anxious confusion. As My thought rise up within you, they become entangled in those sticky webs of worry. Thus, My voice is muffled, and all you hear is white noise.

Ask My Spirit to quiet your mind so that you can think My thoughts. This ability is an awesome benefit of being My child, patterned after My own image. Do not be deafened by the noise of the world or that of your own thinking. Instead, be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Sit quietly in My presence, letting My thoughts reprogram your thinking.

Deuteronomy 30:20

Genesis 1:27

Romans 12:2

So I curled up on my bed and waited for my head to stop hurting, the white noise to stop, and to be able to read again. I can choose to surrender to His will or I can fight it and this process. I choose to surrender and instead to thank Him for giving me an amazingly even keel husband, this sweet friend, as well as this one, to walk with on this path. I just may need a reminder now and again.

So for now, I feel quiet.

June Books

Three books that I read in June, are on my list of favorites.

Monique and the Mango Rains is written by a peace corp volunteer who shadowed a midwife in Mali. Monique, the midwife, is 24, uneducated in the traditional sense, has no electricity or running water. This book was assigned reading to one of my old babysitters in college. She called me and said...I am reading a book you would love. I read it in a day. Eliza has now finished it as well as another girl at her horseback riding camp.

Year of Wonders, I read for one of my book groups. A historical fiction about the plague.

Scared may be an all time favorite. It is fiction but based on true stories. It takes place in Africa. It is haunting and riveting. I had to put it down so many times just to process the story of this little girl.

Any suggestions for July? Any good beach reads? While the list above is on the more serious side, I did not mention the 7 other books that were fun to read but not notable. (i.e Shopaholic.)

Building an Ark

No, seriously, we are. This ran in the Globe today. We need sun. July holds so much promise. for sun and more.

We are waiting for a court date. That means all the paperwork is sorted out. I will post more on this one day, just not yet. Quiet comfort knowing that we may be able to hold our little one soon. Praying that the court date is not elusive and that it is successful.

Andrew's team won at the USA Nationals Club Tournament and is going to Finals in Virginia at the end of the month. So much soccer.

Zach's team competes next weekend. If they win their national finals is in Florida same weekend. Sorry boys, I hope to be out of the country with your dad: )

I had the nicest albeit rainy day..... I got to play with these beautiful twins. Can't wait to add a playmate to the mix...