Monday, June 22, 2009

Summer Happenings, Father's Day, and Waiting

Summer starts with a sort of whip-lash in the Morgan household. Like the roller coaster rides at Disney, we are fooled into thinking that we are coming to a stop when all of a sudden we are racing 60 miles per hour/ 90 degrees downward, stomach bracing, mind whirling, laughing and screaming.

Andrew started work this past week at a golf course. Starts at 5 in the morning. First day he shows up to police cars. A 21y old young man who just returned from Iraq went swimming on the golf course with friends at 2am and drowned. Ugh. A new way to worry about a teenager. He had a college id camp this past weekend. When I applied to college it was so much easier, I was not an athlete.

Eliza is off at horse back riding camp. First time she has been away at sleep-away camp. She went with her best-friend-might-as -well-be-her-sister. The house is quiet without her.

Zach had several end of school parties and starts basketball camp today.

Jason, I have decided is the honorary member to the children category. He and his friends did a man-vacation. They went to New Hampshire for a few days. They mountain biked on Thursday, and hiked the Presidential Traverse on Friday. What takes most normal motivated people 2 grueling days of upward and downward climbing they did in one day. Think waking up at 4am, StairMaster, level 15, 16 hours. Did I miss something? Why would you want to do that? Oh, and I forgot to mention, it was cold and rainy the entire time. Again, why? They had fun being able to say they conquered it. He is still walking funny.

Father's Day. We only had Zach with us. We went out to breakfast, church, lunch at our neighbors, MLS soccer game. I love the father to my children, even the one that is a world away. He is a gentle, loving man. He is the most level, calm, kind man, I know.

Adoption update. There is none. When you struggle with infertility, time becomes two week intervals (two weeks to try-two weeks to see). I am finding that life has become about the day of the week and the time of the day (Monday starts hopeful, Tuesday is the barometer for week, Wednesday and Thursday are the worst because I have figured out that I won't hear, Friday is the climb upwards again for the hope of a new week and maybe answers and movement.) Thank God for Moody because he helped me keep some of my sanity. He captured little B in video and pics. He tried so hard to get her to smile. One started to crack the surface but little B is sure head strong. I sent an email to Jessica on has been 4 weeks since our process took an alternate path. (I do think that God's hand is in it, but don't want to blog about it yet.) We know nothing more than that day-and that day we found out very little. A true lesson in trust and patience. Jason and I are amazed how Jessica's responses are always so sweet and understanding even when she has nothing more to tell us. Please, please, please, information and movement this week. Please, please, good news for this family.


emily said...

It was Moody's delight to spend time with Miss B. He said she is just beautiful and would smile, just not when he was taking her pic or video!! :)

Hang in there sister. I can't wait to see you with your sweet girl.

Justine said...

You are amazing me. Your patience... I hope and pray you will hear news this week. I know how the week becomes an emotional roller coaster. My heart goes out to you.

Farmboy and Buttercup said...

Yeah, what IS with these guys that want a man-vacation like that? I don't get it but glad they had "fun".

Hope this week you hear some great news.

Take care.

rohit said...

You really had a fully loaded summer happening which seem to went like a roller coaster only. But if you are really in interested in a blissful retreat with some mountain adventure then there is a place.

Adoption Cubed said...

It does seem an unfair balance that life has sped up and yet time stands still. The days are heavy with wait. I am sorry. I completely understand about the days of the week. Fridays become dreaded because it will mean a long weekend with no hope of news. I am sorry.

I am so thankful you received pictures and video! I know they are priceless and are such a lifeline during this time. I am so thankful that you get to hear Jessica's sweet voice. She is a dear one. I am so thankful for your family - the continued strength you continue to show to each other. And I am thankful for your sense of humor (he is still walking funny). I know all of these things will guide you through this time. And prayer. And hope. You certainly have mine.